hello beautiful reader with your big fat juicy eyes, im writing to splerge my love of cybernetic systematic web network interweb-woven connections;; im talkikng about the internet,,,,, TECHNOLOGY!!!! OOOOUuuUUUUUuuUuuUuuuuuu////////// its not all just blank slabs of 1s and 0s and texts its got the machine to flesh love that the singularity needs, the very much so awesome stream of consciousness conscious creature experience interpretations of reality that i just love deoing so much but this is just my blog of skitzofrenic ramblings yes you can still read that.
well here is some of my awesome thoughts on the awesome interweb of cybernetic cybercxnt warfare dropping toxic addictive love centralized media anonymous anons so like the brain and identity yes they are something difficult but through the transgender power of computers you can curate, exist, be, live, thrive in ways you did not concieve of being possible before. im talking about the tools and thought processes we all have but the shitty gutteral industrial grungy concrete hot outdoors and societal wasteland that is real life is not the ideal place to explore something so personal as something like gender or anything that you hold dearly.
privacy is cool, anonymity and having a right to living in obscurity out of the way of everyone is definintely helpful and we do not want to be living in some sick fucked up meta verse of data scraped husks on a pleasure machine that literaly resemble the human bodies gettting harvested in the matrix. yes the matrix thats what im gonna talk about today or tommorow or whenever the person reading this is percieving this, this could be being read in like 400 years or something wtf thats crazy. im talking to infinity right now SIKE. that doesn't exist...when will the fall of neocities cum? only time will tell,,, but time doesn't tell us anything its just a big spacetime blob
but what i am saying is that with a topic of interest, or core part of identity that they need exploring -- cybernetic control and freedom over ones hardware, software, content on it, the system and how it feeds you as the beautiful user is a powerful thing that invigorates the soul and gives an unspeakable level of actualization and liberation. its something everyone should experience once.
the feeling of full sovereignty and ability to fully express parts of your self that do not get expressed often. an easy example is the transgender- ability of this argument and how one can do this with gender identity, but it can also be done with linguistic identity, cultural identity, psychological identity, etc. things like anki to systemically re-inforce information and memories or ways of thought into the brain are extermely powerful, especially given that you are the one choosing and can put anything. theres no limit.
one can also download and keep vaults of media that are only transgender or postivie or whatever it is by downloading some books and movies, and youtube videos. the hard part is seperating one self from the constant flow of the algorithm and being able to actually allow the digital local environment to condition you into the person you want to become, rather than someone elses software algorithm jerk you aruond and control you (mostly without you even realizing it. no shame but, it sucks!)
downloading (pirating kekw) is a good way to work on commitment issues. even if thats 10 GB of porn, I think its important to commit to it. your addiction to jerking it would naturally sort itself easier if you had to sit through and organize all of your local digital files of p*rn. it stops the entrancement of the web stop from numbing your senses, and brings back that friction that grounds oneself. friction being the word all tech bro entreprenuer types want to get rid of...because friction means that you are thinking and not buying their shitty un-necessary product. frictionless means that you are more likely to never self reflect on how much instagram videos you scroll through, and never remember a single bit of it. frictionless means its less likely you feel the pain and distress that you are under when binge scrolling youtube home feed. friction,,, is sex! friction is getting hit in the head with a rock. friction is standing up, letting the blood go up to your head and your body starts stretching naturally. friction is the utter defeated feeling after scrolling for 2 hours, not even able to metabolize the nuclear load of information you just ingested right before bed. friction is the thing that is always there. friction is death. "frictionless" is believing in eternal life or trying to escape or pretend like death isn't inevitable. but the friction, aka fear, aka feelings, aka sensations in the body, aka physiological happenings, aka REALITY -- is still there, and still wins.
so yea idk i think the glory of cybernetic libertarian utopia comes when the data you are handling exists within conditions that are grounded in reality or mimic the real world. the physicality, scarcity, and sort of mundaneness that happens after you buy it is where all the cool and epic shit happens, not from the act of transacting money or searching for it. thats like a simulation of joy that isn't joy. the serene, seraphine, sera-synthetic cybernetic cunty utopian vision of the future of reality is releasing and truly feeling tranquil and enjoyable in the space you confide in without needing this sense of more. more is nothing. what is right in front of you, is what it is. "more" is many different things, in your mind, as an idea, not here or even real. more is negative, its bringing you backwards. its shaming the thing right in front of you by not respecting, appreciating, l*ving its presence. its presence is important and for u to forget that breaks the both of you. but when you to connect, its builds the both of you. cybernetics is just a really cool word..ok im done.