Analytic mind / Anal Sisters
i realised the topic when writing the first draft, which is that i became addicted to focusing on issues (not fucking them, edging them to bug me more), RED LIGHT, BINGBINGBING alert signals going off. understand, then believe/reject it. that was my whole degree and i have been bakibaki trudging through life looking at many things like this. a socratic muza-fukka,, that is trying to eat itself alive with their anal sister. the incestuous anal relationship with their sister is what im referring to (分析). but this type of talk exists on a dimension, axis, plane, spectrum that is causally(causation not "kyazjual") independent with that of the real world or experience. theory vs. practice u ever heard of it (this is meta irony)? what i mean is that when i immerse, the engine of anal sisters is revveing its engines getting excited, getting creampied all over the place "oh my gosh how does this sound in english?" "whats an english equivelent to this?" "how does x word work with x word?" the afurikan way is needed in such anglo anal sister new york times. my point of the repeating a video, no subs, whilst on an elliptical(runny treadmill thing that has pedals) is to prime my brain into the most primal, pure, junsui, baby brain chicken nugget munchin goober that doesn't have the energy or even competence to have such "sophisticated" thoughts. sophisticated in quotes, because its making somethinig simple into something complex. its like the opposite of reification, as in: instead of confusing the abstraction for the thing itself (as in, the abstraction is the super reduced version that has high mental economic efficiency);; the anal sisters creampie 4rd f150 edition's schinder cut smoked meats is uhh (gimme sec) its turning the thing itself into a COMPLEX, BIGGER, MORE CONFUSING abstraction and anal sizing its gapping holes and shitting all over the birthday cake. its taking my birthday cake and socratically questioning the ethical implications of colors used and whether or not we should equally DEI the HTML colors on the autism spectrum t-----IT FORGOT THE CAKE WAS THERE PLEASE EAT THE CAKE EAT THE FUCKING CAKE OMG YOU NEED IT;; shoves cake in their face (all problems 解いた). i don't need a physics loser to come in and give me a lesson on how the screws and infrastructe of my PC are holding it in to place. I WANT TO PLAY FORTNITE, but i can't scream that because its lowkey part of my self, my subsconscious enginge THAT WILL BE REPLACED BY JAPANESE AND FAR SUPERIOR COOLER MORE EPIC AND LESS ANNOYINGLY ANAL LIKE MY HOT analysis buddy fred from philsophy club back to japanese okay: declarative knowledge that i gain from analysis (trying to consciously understand things, actively accepting or rejecting them) is a completely 100% fully fruitless activity, which only interferes with progress. declarative knowlege is facts ABOUT the thing, its declaring something ABOUT the thing. i know THAT "a" and "an" mean the same thing. i know THAT japan is nihon. but this is not the type of knowledge language is. language is procedural knowledge, which is a physically different form of memory in your brain. when someone says "learning japanese" this brings to mind images of r/learnjapanese and some white guy using wanikani or genki. but when i am going through my day watching japanese youtubers and listening to podcasts, japanese/language learninig/kanji/grammar doesn't have this declarative image in my head. those words dont pop up cuz theyre in english, but even if they did they are irrelevent. its just not what that is, ajatting is using the tool (imagine a comically large screwdriver you are fixing a big car with) rather than placing it on the shelf (big shelf next to your pc) and talking about it to other people on a subreddit. thats the divide in people who make it, vs people who don't "make it". its just people who spend most of their time twisting and using that screwdriver vs. people who spend most their time staring at it or asking other people on the best way to twist the screwdriver. its a fucking screwdriver get over yourself lol, its not offended that you are using it its a TOOL (no one person owns the thing its free to use by anyone, don't feel like you aren't entitled to it). BUT i must address the fatphobic elephant in the room, we you me and the words on this page are declarative knowledge ABOUT japanese. though, we are using our procedural english knowledge, too (which is important ill get to that later). this declarative knowledge isn't bad, its just a tool like everything else, but its in english. and if you don't know japanese procedurally, or aren't going to soon because you aren't ajatting: then this is my only way to tell you. i used to get elitist and never think its worth telling any english speaker but most people are like this. just pounding their anal sister every day, free, fun, ethically correct incestuous sex with two consenting adults (i hope). you can do it all day, like academics who LOVE to breakdown things like language, culture, etc etc but its fantasy at the end of the day. the declarative knowledge ABOUT another culture, langauge, thing is not the same as being a member, using that procedural knowledge day in n day out (because there is no other choice) and understanding the physical shiny object because YOU ARE THE PHYSICAL SHINY OBJECT RAHHHHHHH. so, no! its not bad that i am giving you english declarative knowledge about methods on LEARNING japanese (aka advice that makes using the screwdriving more likely, more fun, and gets rid of going on those r/BIGFUNSCREWDRIVER subreddits that can't stop asking "am i doing this right") but when it really becomes dangerous is having copious amounts of english declarative knowledge ABOUT "the japanese language." "the japanese" "knee hone hikaru no GO!". this is a net negative, avoid at all costs trash show. throw it IN THE DUMPSTER. this is the kind of wanikani loving, morphman enjoying, grammar nazi linguistic NERD who gives you advice on how to get buff when hes FUCKING FAT. hes super skinny. hes got metabolism issues, so he doesn't go to the gym. or lets be gender friendly and use every pronoun. she's tired from not exercising enough, so she isn't gonna exercise today (or even plan for it tomorrow). they are waiting for a fitness watch to come in the mail, so they didn't walk or run today. hes waiting for gloves in the mail, so he isn't gonna use it today. but he ended up reading a bunch of stories on reddit about what are the "best gloves." honey, brother, DUDE: the gloves, the declarative knowledge about the thing (it doesn't matter if its correct or not, my text included) is not making you better. you feel bad or guilty because you WERE NOT screwing the screw driver, not because the gloves, the chair, the AC temperature, or your IBS. that anxiety that makes you want to cry on reddit isn't being resolved, melted, 解いた、or helping you feel those sweet endorphins you get from working out. its only giving them more ammo, more bullshit worries to have, more glove knowledge that is still inferior because you FUCKING SUCK AT SCREWING THE SCREWDRIVER. and if you have anxiety while screwing, thats okay. its not a familiar experience. the reason ajatt blog/mattvsjapan type declarative english knowledge is important, is to know that screwing the screwdriver works, and is THE ONLY thing that works. it takes lots of sucking and feeling no progress, but thats why it works: thats what you did when you were a baby. confused, bored, crying, not understanding: but you sat through it all. all those adults talking about very serious stuff that meant nothing to you, people asking you questions you can't answer, or random symbols and signs that just look like jibberish. whats most important, is to know that what you want, what the cool kids have, what the skinny girls get to wear, what the chad gets to fuck: will be granted to you through that long, daily, consistent screwing. if you were screwing (not ur anal sister) your car more often, you would know with 0.1% of the effort which glove was best. take yourself out of the equation for a second. imagine you have a kid that you love and want to see flourish (and have to take care of them) who really liked japanese stuff. they saw godzilla on tv, they watched the animes, the vidya: it would make them really happy and appreciative if they could use it. now, would it really be that hard to try and make them fluent? like, it seems kinda out there, but would that not be fucking sick to make your kid fluent at japanese? like sure, it makes them/him/her different from "other kids", but who can watch anime without subs? who can walk around japan and talk to anyone they want? who can speak TWO languages, and not just ONE? you have full control of this kid, and they are REALLY interested after all. you wanna see them happy and having fun right? ok cool then switch all their shit into japanese lol. FUCKING EVERYTHING IT DOESN"T MATTER MAKE THIS KID AN ABSOLUTE KANJI EATING FUCKING UUUUUNIT. UNIT. tank this kid THE FUCK UP. MAKE THEM SO FUCKING GOOD NATIVES CANT TELL THEY CAME FROM KAIGAI. okay hold on though, don't force them into some stupid routine though, they're a kid! they like sugar, video games, picking at grass, theyre just KIDS. think about the kids harold!! asking them to do something or forcing them to do it is just never gonna work, the best you can do is restrict what they can do or allowed to do. don't want your kid to play xbox? don't let them know xboxs exist. that is literally the most effective hyaku-paacento solution ever. the kid likes the japanese shit already, just take away the english subs, the translations, SENT THAT FUCKER IN THE DEEP END. She'll make it, dw kids are built to use language (just like you). You are evolutionarily CRAFTED for japanese, and have no good reason NOT to learn it if thats what you actually like.